Hey there...

Apologies for not being around much this week. 

Possibly having a relapse with my Crohn's Disease so I haven't really been that fussed with coming online.

I'll catch up with your blogs sometime soon though. Hope I haven't missed too much!

Back to Basics

Ususally I write about a certain topic but today I'm going to update you on what's been going on in my life as of late. You know, get back to the basics of blogging so to speak. I don't know why, but writing has become very difficult for me lately. I just find everything I write to be meh. So much so that this is my third attempt at writing this post.

As most of you'll know, I have Imflammation of the Colon and underwent treatment in the form of steriods. Well, I've been off those steriods for a few weeks now and I miss them terribly. Simply because my appetite has gone again. Sigh. I also had a hospital appointment to discuss my condition and apparently, the doctor is 95% sure that I have Chrones Disease. Lovely eh? To be 100% sure though I've got to go for an x-ray in a few weeks time.

Now because I don't want to end this post on a downer, I just found out this morning that apart from an exam on Tuesday, I don't have to go back to university until the 30th January! How frigging awesome is that?! 

Things Are Looking Up

As many of you have probably already noticed, my blog hasn't got any particular theme. It's simply my online journal where I splurge my thoughts and ramblings with a few videos and pictures thrown in for fun. It's why I love my blog so much, it's just so incredibly girly and fun. Well, that's what I think anyway.

Though despite this being my online journal, I tend to keep my personal problems about my health to myself. I guess I didn't want to bring the cuteness of this blog down with posts about illness. But in order to decribe how great I'm feeling now, I need to tell you just how bad it all got. So bare with me, this will be over soon.

For the past six months I've been slowly deteriorating health wise. The last few months especially. I was barely eating. I couldn't stand the smell or texture of anything my mum made for me. It got so bad that I would heave everytime I tried to eat something. I had no energy, no strength, no oomph basically. I even thought I'd developed an eating disorder.

Though since starting the steriods, I've become a completely different person! Physically, I'm stronger. I've been eating non-stop, much to the pleasure of my parents. I've managed to put 5lbs back on from eating cheese slices alone! It's crazy how good they taste...

But the main difference is how I am feeling mentally now. I'm alot brighter, happier and considerably more positive, and that's despite having fucktards screw me around! I'm a lot more bubbly, contributing to conversations more and just generally having more "life" in me now. It feels awesome basically. 

I feel so good now that I hope I can stay this way. I love having the energy to put so much dedication into my university work when before I was close to quitting. I love having the energy to play around with my blog more and joining new cute sites like Pinterest whereas before I had no interest. 

I feel like a brand new person. And I like it.

Fire in my Veins...

So do you remember when I told you that I had an undiagnosed condition and that I had a hospital appointment due?

Well that was two days ago. I don't know why I'm embarrassed to say it because it's perfectly natural but meh... I had a Colonoscopy. But it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be thankfully.

Though I say being sedated had something to do with that! I'm not going to go into the graphics but I will say this, whatever they gave me before the sedative was fucking awesome!! My veins felt like they were on fire!

In my semi-awake state, I thought I was a superhero but then my brain settled on something else and I laughed. It was perfect. I wasn't a superhero after all, instead, I had just been injected with vampire venom. I spent the rest of the procedure believing I was Bella. Sigh. Don't diss the ill Twilight fan!!

Instead of waking up sparkly and uber strong, I woke up more lightheaded than I've ever been in my entire life. Another scary moment was that I took longer to recover than expected. You see, sedatives affect the heart and it took my heart ages to get back to it's normal rhythm... But I was too sleepy to notice.

From the procedure, they discovered that my immune system has been attacking my bowels which has caused me to suffer from Inflammation of the Colon. I could also have Chrones Disease but we gotta wait for the biopsies to come back before we know for sure. 

Treatment wise? I've been given a huge dose of steroids which apparently will give me back my appetitite. And so far, so good. Hopefully I'm on the road to recovery now!

Fuck You Mother Nature!

All through puberty and my teenage years you spare me from greasy skin and acne, but now? NOW you decide to curse me with it?

That's not on. Not on at all!

Sort it out. Pronto!

Out of the wars, barely...

Hey guys,

Sorry for my lack of posting but I've been too ill to do anything other than stare blankly at the television screen, letting it numb the pain as well as my brain. Basically this summer my stomach has become extremely delicate. I can't eat anything spicy or strong flavours anymore. I can't tell you how much I'm missing chicken curry.

On Thursday I stupidly took a strong painkiller for "Aunt Ruby's Monthly Visit" and my newly delicate stomach has made me pay for it by giving me every fucking side effect the painkiller has to offer. I'll let you use your own imagination for that part.

I woke up feeling okay today so that is why you'll probably all notice a bunch of comments from me as I caught up with your posts. I still feel pretty weak so I'll wrap this post up with a funny youtube vid I saw on Rude Tube a few nights ago.

I hope no one gets offended by it though. It's funny. End of.

Ow...!

I hope this doesn't happen again anytime soon!

I left the warm living room to go to the bathroom and I had that lightheaded feeling I usually get when I stand up too quickly. But once the cold air of the bathroom washed over me, my body started to shudder and jerk. Though my vision was blurred I could still make out where I was headed - straight for the bath! 

In my confused state I dropped my phone, the sickening crack no more than a faint whisper as I simultaneously banged into the shower door. It was inevitable that I was losing control, the increased shuddering and jerking of my body told me that. I wasn't panicking though, mainly because the weird movements I was doing reminded me of that "Walk like an Egyptian" dance. And with that thought, my legs buckled and I landed right smack inbetween the bath and the toilet. Niiicce. That will teach me for scoffing drunks passing out in distusting places!! 

Of course my mum came running when she heard the "thud" of my body making contact with the ground. AND LAUGHED WHEN SHE SAW ME! Not that I cared though because I was laughing too as I still had the Egyptian dance moves running through my mind. Afterwards, I was completely fine but my phone had broke apart and its battery had skidded across the floor in all the excitment. I was able to fix it, though strangely it thought it was 2009... 

I think it's got brain damage.

A simple prayer

Oh sweet baby Jesus!

I've got a cold.

And you know that I usually don't mind having them because I like how they make me feel drowsy...

It's just...

My nose is so god damn itchy!

Make it stop, pweety pwease?

Thanks.

Love, Hazel

Typical!

I will be attending my first ever wedding tomorrow and as you take in that shocking bit of news, I'll let you all know how I've been preparing for it.

Firstly, I found a gorgeous purple dress which would have been perfect if it hadn't made my boobs look saggy. As you can imagine, I couldn't be having that so I began my dress search once more. After a few weeks I found a beautiful coral dress which screamed "oh so pretty". After it was in my possession and declared perfect for the wedding I then had a shit attack trying to think of what colour shoes, bag and cardigan would go with it. 

Hmm... maybe white? Surely white shoes will look tacky? Let's see what Google says...

The Google search deemed successful and I managed to find a bag and a cardigan with no trouble. I need a cardigan because the wedding is taking place here at Mussenden Temple and it can get a bit chilly...

The shoes were the trickiest to find, but find them, I did and I've been painstakingly breaking them in so that hopefully my feet won't be covered in blisters at the end of the night. Overall, I'm happy with what I'll be wearing.

But you know what?

After all these preparations, how am I repaid? 

By waking up to a frigging spot on my chin which I swear doubles in size every time I look at it and if that's not bad enough, the sunburn that hasn't bothered me all week, has now started to flake! The only way I can describe it is like when you used to cover your fingers in glue at school then pick it off. That's what's going on with my forehead right now! 

Sigh....

Love, Hazel

Migraines Suck

After three years of successful evasion, the dreaded migraine has finally caught up with me. I used to suffer from them a lot when I was studying for my GCSE's in high school but they left me alone when I went to college. Which pretty much tells you guys that I didn't do much studying in college...

Now though, it's because I read too much. I know my dear fellow bookworms, how can you possibly read too much? But alas, reading is now temporally off limits as well as my time online being seriously cut down too. I probably shouldn't even be writing this but... I'm bored. Though saying that, I think I'm gonna go rest my eyes for a bit. The screen just looks too bright.

Love, Hazel